As I've previously mentioned, I decided to participate in the Crossfit Open as a way to benchmark my own performance, not to go head-to-head with other competitors. Having crossed over to the other side of my 1-year anniversary as a Crossfitter, there are noticeable strides and obvious changes in strength, but I suppose I still wanted some measurement, some numerical proof, that I was growing as an athlete.
I had been proud of my scores from the first three weeks, and relieved that the fourth week's WOD would not eliminate me, and even I contemplated trying to eek out a few additional reps in a second attempt at the Wallballapalooza. Sunday night, while procrastinating over my final presentation for a class I was taking, I suddenly remembered that I had to enter my score. 8:04 eastern standard time. Submissions were supposed to be in by 8. Delighted that the registration system still let me enter my score, I became relieved and excited to see how the score would affect my then-15,175th place ranking. (I know, I know, I wasn't supposed to care how I was doing against everyone else).
Fast forward to Wednesday. Below is what I found:
How was my score still pending? Everyone else from my box had a valid score recorded. I emailed the coaches at my affiliate, and even as I write this I haven't received a response from them about what happened. I was so deflated. So much so that I didn't even attempt the 12.5 workout, which would have gotten me 3 points.
I wanted to justify my resulting petulance by blaming everyone else in the process. The website, my coaches, my girlfriends who kept me out so late on Saturday night thus rendering me unable to reattempt the workout on Sunday. No, this one is on me.
The deadline was clear. The expectation was clear. And I missed it, by 4 minutes. And by days of not checking to make sure that the website had accepted my score. If I was going to give myself full credit for my success in this process, then I must hold myself in full accountibility for my failure. Fair is fair.
So where would I have been, if the score had properly been entered? 14,011th place. Lots of room for improvement. And that's all on me too.
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